That's how I feel right now. Like I'm hanging in there and I wish that I could do more. I wish my house was clean (like it is on Mondays when I used to spend three or four hours on it), that I could play more games with Lucas, that I could get back into Relief Society, that I could start working again, and that I could fit back into my pants. Then I tell myself that it's only been three weeks and that I need to relax a little and not start stressing out already. But that is me. I think I like to stress out and when I don't have something to stress about I must not be happy. That's why Bryan and I go together so well because he always calms me down and tells me how great I'm doing even when I think he really can't be telling me the truth.
Bryan has been great. He takes Ty every night so I can be in bed before 10 and then he makes sure I can sleep in until 8 or nine. He works from home on Mon, Wed, and Fri, and still leaves for work a little later on Tues and Thurs so I can get that extra sleep. What a great guy.
Lucas is doing fine too except that the change has been a lot for him. He doesn't deal well with change and is very schedule oriented. The smallest change can destroy his day. Every day is an adventure with him and I love him. Ty is a good baby and I feel very blessed to have him here. So I'm hanging in there and reminding myself that Ty will only be a newborn for a short time and Lucas will only be five for six more months so it's okay if there are dishes in the sink and laundry in the wash. It's okay that I'm not working and that my counselors can pick up the slack. It's all okay and I just need to relax a little longer. (And by the way, I'm not really complaining. I know most of you have dealt with much more than this and I am truly grateful for what I'm going through. I wouldn't change it for anything.)
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hey Lynne, I totally know how you are feeling. I was soo stressed when Sienna was born, so this time around I vowed to not let anything stress me out, and just enjoy Carter every minute, because he may or may not be the last little baby we get to enjoy, (I honestly think it has made things go so so much better!) So just enjoy that little guy, and let your house be a little messy, he will grow up fast!! as for Lucas, it is the same with Cameron. We didn't have Terrible two's with him, but we definately have terrible fives!! hang in there, I am so glad you have such a great suportive hubby behind you!! (Happy Birthday Bryan!)
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